You cant do that.
You need to do this.
This is the way forward.
This is what you are supposed to do.
Do this.
Do it now,
first thing tomorrow
What is your problem?
Why do you feel this way?
Where did it start?
Why do you keep hurting yourself?
Why can't you get over your past?
What do you want?
What would make you happy?
What do you want for your future?
What do you want for your children?
Do you really want them to see you this way?
Is this the way you want to live your life?
Why are you killing yourself this way?
Why can't you just stop the damn drinking?
Why do you act like this?
WHAT IS IT YOU WANT?
Swirling, Swirling, Swirling
till I feel like I'm fucking crazy.
About Me
- Beautiful Chaos
- I am a 32 year old woman, married with 2 beautiful daughters. My writing is often brutally honest,as is life and may contain content not suitable to some viewers. If you are easily shockable this may not be the page for you. However, I must state that not everything you read on here is about my life, some is fiction, or things I have witnessed others go through. Sharing is often difficult as it is a personal look at my inner soul; if you are good at discerning such things you can see me for who I truly am, not the me I present to the world. There is no order to the writing, the new is mixed with the old,the pain with the love, tis truly chaos. Reading over my blog I suddenly realized that I must sound like a damn junkie. For the record, yes I did inhale, in high school, which is the only time in my life I used drugs recreationally. My father however, was addicted to crystal meth from his teenage years till his death in his late twenties. I am quite familiar with drug addiction and its effects. I did play pretty hard with alcohol abuse though, for a couple years and probably came within a hair's width of full blown physiological addiction, and much of my writing does address that.
1 comment:
What's neat is that most any given piece of advice is actually a command; as the commanders tend to become rather hostile when you refuse to follow orders.
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